It is important for me to not give up so young and to not think of myself as dead, or dying, or someone who exists less than others. It is important to keep trying to be happy again and to not wait without you,for you,and to not feel like I am lacking something.Because,I want to be a person who doesn't have to change for anyone,not even for themselves .But first I have to get there.and I am getting there .I Don't even know sometimes, where I found this will to live.I think i just push myself to piss myselff off,because I have to be nagged.